Helloo? Yes? Who's this??

I'm soooo exhausted today.

Really for the last week or so I can barely keep my eyes open. I don't know what is going on with me. But all I want to do is SLEEP. I'm sleeping so much I had to get a large bottle of Tylenol gel caps & some Benefiber to keep my system going! Even small trips up & down the stairs or taking the dogs out for a walk are like marathons. 

I feel like I have NO energy EVER.

Oh well.

That seems to be my new catch phrase lately, Oh well.

So I had to go in & see Dr. Rockstar again, for a little bit of a catch-up appointment from last time & for some new symptoms that have popped up... more than likely from the Clomid. While I was there, Dr. Rockstar decided to have me take a blood test to see if  I actually ovulated this cycle. I waited a few day to get the results, to see if this had actually worked, or if the dosage needed to be upped. When I didn't hear back after 3 days, & was due to pick up my new prescriptions, I called in to Dr. Rockstar's office. After confirming all my info, I was put on hold while she found my results. 

"Jaimie?"

"Yes?"

"I'm gonna go ahead & talk to the nurse real quick, it will be just a minute, okay?"

"...Okay..."

*5 mins pass*

"Jaimie?"

"Yes?"

"I'm going to go ahead & put you on with the nurse, okay?"

"...Okay..."

*3 minutes pass*

"Jaimie?"

"Yup."

"I'm gonna go talk to Dr. Rockstar, real quick, mmkay?"

"...Sure.."

*Another 5 minutes*

"Jaimie?"

"Yea, still here."

"I'm gonna go ahead & put you on with Dr. Rockstar, hold one more sec.."

-_-

 

At this point I'm no longer just calling casually... I'm sitting rigidly on the edge of my bed,  wondering what the hell is going on. Did it not work? Did something show up in my blood work? Are things worse than we thought???

Finally... The calm voice of Dr. Rockstar is on the other end of the line...

"Hi, Jaimie?"

"Yes, Hi Dr. Rockstar."

"Well hi Jaimie, So I have good news. We have your test results back and your levels were definitely up! That's good! That means you definitely did ovulate...So w do not need to change the dosage. Now, because of where your at in your cycle... it's still too early to tell, but if you don't start a new cycle spontaneously by the 1st, I want you to go ahead & test for a positive. If it's not, & you still have not started, go ahead & wait a week, & test again, Okay??"

...silence...

"Jaimie? You there?"

"Yea, yup. Test on the 1st...Yup"

"Okay okay, good...& Jaimie?"

"Yea?"

"I've got my fingers crossed."

O.o

I was so caught off guard by all of it that I barely remember saying goodbye. I know that it doesn't mean anything yet. I could just have high levels by being at the end of my cycle. I also know I really shouldn't get my hopes up. But catch me off guard why don't ya?!

So now it's all I can think about.

Ofcourse.

I've already explained to everyone that if we do find out we are, Ryan & I have decided we wont be announcing it till the second trimester. We feel it will just be a little easier that way. But I HAVE to talk to SOMEONE!!! So I'm talking here. I probably wont say much, since I don't know who really even reads this, but I'm going to say a little more here than I do in person. 

I NEED a place to unload all of these feelings. 

Because I refuse to let them swallow me whole again.

eeeeesh.

Keep your fingers crossed!

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I'm sexy & I know it...

I really like these little link ups... 
though sometimes, I think I do way to many of them 
 oh well.

1. When do you feel that you are at your sexiest?

 When I'm cooking. My hubbly always loves it when I cook.

2. What's your favorite magazine? Why?

I would like to say Cosmo... but I'm really sure it's any of the little recipe magazines you get at the check stand at the grocery store. Cause well... this fatkid just LOOVES to window shop recipes.. yes I do! :D

3. What’s something you do more quickly than most people?

I do really well with most kids I meet. 

They tend to like me very quickly after meeting me :)

4. When do you first remember using a computer?

Omg... when I was like 10 or 11 years old. It was a dinosaur of an E-machine with a dial-up louder than school bell.

5. Who is the craziest person in your family?

Breanna. Hands down.

6. What one thing are you craving today?

Asian food.

7. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?

Anything. I really just love to shop... I don't get to do it often...

8. What’s the part of your morning you least look forward to every day?

The "waking-up-morning" part.

9. What are some rules you have for yourself 

that don’t really make much sense?

 Not sleeping in. If I sleep longer than 7 hours, I get in a really pissy mood.

Not really sure why though...

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Pass It Forward!

Okay I have stumbled on something epic-ly AWESOME.

While I was over at 5ohWifey's blog, I read her latest post about a project she was joining in on. It's from the lovely Ashley over at The Shine Project:

This is probably the greatest idea I've heard in a LONG time! My friends & I used to all do this back in highschool all the time... & I try to do it here & again now... 

but this is AWESOME!

It's kinda like the $1.00 bill "Where's George" project. They are card with little ID #'s on them, & when you pay it forward you give the card to the cashier, and ask them to pass it to the person you paid for. 

 This is what the card looks like:

Then you go home, log in & enter the whens & wheres... & then the process starts all over again! & you can track where your cards go & who they help!

Now if it actually works, this could be really epic!

To get the cards, you can either visit her SHOP & pick out something you like, you'll

 get 1 free card with that... or you can purchase 10 cards for EXTREMELY cheap!! 

My 10 cards are on there way... & I can't WAIT to pass them on! 

:)

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Bucket List CHALLENGE!

You ever written a bucket list?

You know, the things you want to do in your life before you die?

If you haven't... ever wish ya did?

Today I'm issuing a challenge. To any and all who want to participate. 

Write out YOUR bucket list.

Doesn't matter what is on it, or how many things. Just sit back with a piece of paper & a pen, & start writing down the things you want to do, be, have, see...whatever!

All that matters is that YOUR happy with it.

& It's doesn't have to be finished right away... You can keep adding & subtracting and adjusting for as long as you want! That's what makes this challenge so easy.

I started mine a few years ago, & I've been slowly ticking things off here & there... But I noticed when I looked at it the other day, that it really needs an update.

 Some of my wants have changed... & that's okay, cause it's MY bucket list!

& For those brave enough, I extend my challenge:

Share YOUR bucket list here, with all of us!

Just write about it on your blog, and link it back here. It could be one thing... or many!

You never know, you might read someone else's & think... 

"dang! I wanna do that!!"

....I will be posting my list in pieces over the next few weeks, 
along with pointers, tips, & tricks on how to create your perfect list...

So, What do you think?

  Wanna do the Bucket List Challenge with me??

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My hubby is such a bad influence...

With Ryan's days off falling Thurs-Sat, I'm having a hard time keeping up on some of my regular posts. Oh well...

Here's joining in on another round of

1. What do you do when you are really upset to calm yourself down?

I blast Linkin Park. Loud as I can. Through speakers of headphones, I don't care.

2. Do you go all out for V-day or is it just another day?

Kinda in-between. Not exactly a special day, but not exactly a normal day. Ryan & I tend to use it as a fake-date day.

3. Are you more or less productive when Hubs is away?

MORE. Definitely...when he's home, I get almost NOTHING done. :)

4. What is your favorite time of day and why?

 About an hour after sunrise. When everything is still waking up, it's still kind of quiet. the sun is brighter and the air is crisper about that time. It's soothing... 
 

5. What is your go to karaoke song?

 Right now, it's Black horse & A Cherry Tree by KT Tunstall

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Happy Heart Day

Valentines day. 

It's one of those days that most couples feel the need to buy sweets, flowers, & stuffed toys for their loved ones to more or less "prove" their affections. Then there is also the people who choose to view this day as a perfect chance for revolt, hosting "Forever Alone" parties full of eating & drinking.

Ryan & I use this day as yet just another reason, to laugh. :)

Instead of buying cards and gifts, we go to the store and pick out the things that we would give each other and laugh and joke about the corny sweetness that occurs on this day.

...He thinks he so funny giving me a bigger puppy than I gave him...

We always have so much fun. After we go get stuffed on food & go home & spend the rest of the night watching a marathon of our current TV series & eating candy till our tummy's hurt.

Here is a video of Ryan drinking his first Martini ever:

Such a great tradition.

Here are some of the cards we found funny this year:

Hope you had a great Valentines / Forever Alone day 

:)

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