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Love. What happens after you find it?
Honestly? I don't know anyone who can give me the TRUE answer to that.
LOVE.
You never even know when it really hits you... that's the sad part.
When you THINK its there.. its almost surely a false alarm, brought on by this growing urge for the feeling of complete companionship... but then.. when all the sudden the butterflies morph into something more..
you think "god, I'm so comfortable with this person. Its so nice here..."
You don't even realize you have drifted of to love land. Sometimes you even DOUBT it.
"I'm not in LOVE. Love is such a strong word.. its only barely serious!"
....but then you start to think of quirky, off the wall reasons to text them in the middle of the day, or even stop by for a quick lunch. You start to skip hanging out with your friends doing your NORMAL weekly rituals.. just to sit and watch TV with them.. or just go for a drive.
You smile more, care more about how you look genuinely instead of in a material way.
(you wanna make sure those sweats and messy bun look cute on you for movie night..)
And at first you get the normal roust from the posse.
"what happened to you?" "your never around." "What about us?"
Sometimes these territorial comments can cause a small tear in friendships.. but normally, only for a short while. Then, just as fast as the feelings hit you, the friends start to accept the changes, feel happy for you, even encourage them.. inviting your significant new half out to BBQ's and dinners.. claiming they have to get to know them EVENTUALLY.
When the dust comes to settle and you realize that yes..
maybe you are in four letter turf..
a mixture of happiness and fear arises.. even if its only for a split second. So you have found LOVE. what now?
Apts, bills, curtains, and clothes.. bathroom arguments, funny inside jokes, small pet peeves that are daily put to test, a personal midnight Teddie bear?
A million trillion things can happen once you have decided you have FOUND love..
how am I to be the one to tell you what they SHOULD be?
I Think to each his own.
Maybe to you love means marriage, home, kids...
maybe to some one else, it means a lifetime road trip partner.
It might even just be an AMAZING new pair of shoes...
You JUST never know.
I don't think there should be a dictionary description to what is and isn't right. The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you YOU love, well, that's just fabulous.
I think that if you feel strongly enough that its genuinely, absolutely, truly the biggest and best choice you have ever made to let those four little letters slip..
Then you have found a happiness that some spend a lifetime searching for.
And To that?
Bravo.. I do say ....BRAVO.
