I think I felt my heart fall from my chest today.
..or at least, it tripped..
After meeting with the doctor and getting the pregnancy confirmed, I was not quite in agreement about how far along she thought I was. (this was not Dr. Paretsky, but just a nurse in the office) She didn't want to listen, and only wanted to use her little paper wheel and go by my last period to tell me a due date... only problem? my periods have been way irregular since i was 13 and if you go by my last period, that means that im only a week or two along... and that the sperm just HAPPENED to LIVE in me for oh... about 3 weeks before actually getting me preggers....
hmm.. i don't think so.
So after Melissa's appointment today with Dr. Paretsky I asked her if I could run this by her. She agrees with me that Im probably further along than 2 weeks... but when she heard I was also bleeding... STILL.. after two weeks.. her face dropped.
After that its all a blur really.. "High risk" and "miscarriage" kept being said & I just kept zoning out...
Thank god Melissa was there with me.
I called my mom once we left and broke down... "Mom, I'm scared."
She immediately told me it was okay, and told me she didn't care, she would be with me tomorrow at the ASAP appointment that had been scheduled.
"No matter what baby, we'll get through this, I love you."
Even though it didn't fix how I was feeling.. it sure helped just to hear her say that.
So I have that appointment tomorrow after We go see Dr. Cole to schedule Melissa's C-section,
(Her aversion didn't work at all!) and get everything all set up for that.
*We went in for Melissa's aversion on Monday.. and it was horrible! She was in so much pain! I've never seen her so upset!! I had to just hold her hand and try to help her breathe.. it was really kinda scary...*
At the end of the day Mom called to check on me and see how everything was going, and when she heard I was calmer, she told me her thoughts. Last week I had a UTI and she was almost 99% positive that was still the problem. She's sure the baby is okay...
(my mom is an LPN) I had to ask her 2 times if she was sure.
"Hunny, earlier I was so scared, I wasn't thinking. I wasn't in nurse mode, I was in mommy mode... once I calmed down and looked back at things.. I realized I really think we have nothing to worry about"
That makes it a little easier to breathe.
We are still going in to see the doctor tomorrow to double check and make sure,
but I can sleep a little easier (& Ryan can stop stressing out...he's gonna rub my belly button off!) if I believe everything is okay.
Will update tomorrow.
Say a little prayer for baby.
Did you ever have any Pregnancy scares??
Tell me about it...tell me I'm not alone?
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Anthony and Melissa thought it would be nice to get my mind off things with fun pictures of my belly for the "Meet the Family" page.
Since we don't know what baby is yet, they got creative...
This was my favorite:
