... & I feel fiiiiiiine :)
If your reading this... the world is still spinning. Everything is okay. Nothing has ended.
At this point in my life, I have lived through a few "world-ending" scenarios. I don't tend to feed in to them much.. but I will admit, I did give this one half a second of possibility-inducing fear. I wasn't sure why at first. I talked it over with Ryan, trying to figure it out, & then last night it dawned on me..
I know why this time it scared me:
I actually have something very important to lose.
Any other time, its just been me & Ryan. I was happy, content... my life pretty much complete. We had eachother, and that was all I ever needed... but now...
...now I have ATLEAST another 50-70 years to happily look forward to!
I don't like any idea that possibly takes those happy moments from me..
I want those 50-70 years!!
Thankfully, this is just another one of those catastophies that the world has to go through every few years... keeps everyone on thier toes, and since nothing happened...
I get to look forward to my happy memories.
Yesterday, we took our new pictures for the month.
Baby is about the length of a banana!
...Baby has come a long way from just a little grape. :)
We also did the dreaded belly shot. Now know, that I absolutly hate this one... cause I look EXACTLY the same in every shot since I'm already on the thicker side...
Until this month:
BOOM! There's a BABY in there! :D
*Aaaaaand I've LOST a total of 20lbs since MARCH!*
I can finally FEEL the baby! I'm so excited... all these little things that tell me that the baby is actually there... not just cramps, sleepiness, & constant nausea.
Everything now is counting down the days till we get another chance to find out what our little baby is! The day after Christmas, we have an appointment with a specialist to double check a few things.. and they have a ultrasound machine that is way more detailed than the ones we've been using... so hopefully, this time, my stubborn little baby will take the umbilical cord from between its legs & let us see what exactly it's name will be!!
Ugh! 6 days... it feels like an eternity!!
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