This was a hard one for me.

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Day 17

A picture of something that has made a 
huge impact on your life recently.

This was a hard one for me. 

In October 2010, (about 5 months ago)
I found out that my biggest dream had come true:
I was pregnant!
...& I was 1 month along.... 

I was so excited.. but also nervous...
because from before I even took the test to find out I was pregnant, I knew something was wrong. A week after the good news, my worst fears were confirmed.

I had lost the baby.

I've never felt so damaged.

I've never felt so hurt.

I've never felt so...lost.

It took awhile for me to even leave my bed. 

Read these previous posts:

What is going on with me??

Sunny days.. Chasing my clouds away...

You wish to understand my misfortune?

I still think about it almost every second of every day.

...& it still hurts more than ever...

but I have learned a lot.

& I will take that with me for the rest of my life. 

& When I AM pregnant again.. 
I will cherish it even MORE.

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